But on a serious note, I’m so grateful to  have  the most amazing friends. They really showed me they cared and even acquaintances came out for my going away party, people I never thought would, did. I’m extremely excited and nervous and scared. A lot of thoughts are going on in my mind. My mom started crying today because she realized that my room will be empty. And I wont be anywhere near her, to confide in her, to sit and have our morning talks over coffee and cigarettes while she plays poker on the computer. Now we will have a 7 hour time difference, just like with everyone else she loves. My grandparents, my sister, her uncle and grandmother. My dad gave me some great advice today. He told me it’s time to put my big girl shoes on and live life as an adult. Fully independent. I can’t say there aren’t a lot of thoughts in my mind, backtracking to why it is i made this decision in the first place. But then I remember all the amazing people in Israel, and how people really LIVE there, not like here. There is never a dull day there. So much life and excitement. And my grandmother with Alzheimers and my great grandmother who is at the end now. In 2 years my parents want to move to Israel too. And they will. I know they will. And my sister wants to permanently move there as well. We will all be together again soon. This is just a short break in the long run.  I’ll miss my dogs too. I can’t remember or imagine life without them. That is going to suck a lot actually. But this is the next chapter of my life. It’s the most insane thing I have ever done, and it made me realize that If I REALLY want to to something, I can.